Ambition

Breeze blowing
through tall meek trees.
Chlorinated and pollinated;
the devil’s beat creator.
Wish away the pain
and sing the blues to me.
One cliché too far
but not enough
for you.

1.618

God is an endless string of numbers.
The in-between details become the devil
with little to no effort.
I calculate repetitively;
infinitely;
in endless circular trails
which feed themselves into starvation
Lying perfectly still among the night’s stars
and burning myself out
into the depths of golden ratio
numbness

Serpent’s tail shit;
Over and over;
On repeat;
Circular perpetuity;
Et cetera.

Nothing but missing letters
and glorious exhaustion
lie within…

The Light That Blinds

The light flowed down from the sky
as silken waves
smashing into harsh landscapes.
I stood.
I stood and watched
the light’s metamorphosis into flakes of snow.
The light then held me as I waited for something more.
But as flakes of snow reached me
I realized they were ashes,
and the light changed.
No longer holding me.
Now holding me down.

Saturday Night

Tied up all my influences
And drowned them in the river.
Sealed off all the exits;
Tape over dry mouths.
Wet eyes and runny noses.
This is not a free ride.
We’ll all pay a price
Again.

And again.

Bleed Me a River

There is no pot of gold
At the end
Of this grayscale rainbow

Just another wasted day
Spent / Searching

Title Number Six

Gasping for emptiness.
Frail and bled.
Wounds as constant reminders
Of the true potential.
It’s all repetition
And lies;
Guilt by disassociation

God would be so proud.

Second Hand

Uninspired and cold
As blood tears roll
On a pale white cheek.
Led like a lamb
To the slaughter;
Reflective metal
Through taut flesh

You are not my god
And I will not sacrifice
For you.

No, Never

Frail and falling apart
To pieces of fragile porcelain.
Where do you draw the line
Between down and gone?
Concave vision of rabbit in headlights.
Light through a dirty window.
Repeat to fade.
Black nails and imploding skin.
Penmanship is not so good.
The elusive end is never near.

Self-Preservation Coma

I try to relax
Yet sitting on hands;
Fearing the red silence.
It shows its teeth;
I do nothing.
Looking into the eyes of others
Raises the vulnerability level.
Where I want anonymity
As a means of protection.
It clenches it’s fists
And screams in my face;
I do nothing.

(Con)fusion

Desperate suicide letters
To Santa Claus.
I know I saw the corner metamorphosize.
Misguided and lied to,
Yet still not willing to delude myself
With things that will not be.
Self-serve ice cream melts quicker.
Ring a bell and salivate.
It echoes, returns;
Changes shape and color.